Posted by Barely Knit Together on Mar 20, 2009 in
A Bit on the Dark Side,
Mental Stability,
Motherhood
I finished my story, and posted it over on Blogher.
I’m not thrilled with it, just like everything else I do. There’s more to tell, more to sort through, more to figure out. I want to be able to tell you I am all better, but I’m not there yet.
PPD can disguise itself as normal parenting [...]
Tags: antidepressants, Breastfeeding, depression, medications and breastfeeding, Motherhood, parenting, postpartum depression, ppd, weaning
Posted by Barely Knit Together on Mar 18, 2009 in
Breastfeeding,
Mental Stability,
Motherhood
Hello. Welcome back to another exciting episode of, “What to do when you have dropped your basket.”
What is “dropping your basket”? I’m glad you asked.
Often, it is nothing more than being weepy and dysphoric, not enjoying things you once did. It can also manifest as:
1. Irritability
2. Obsessiveness / OCD. OCD can sometimes be just obsessiveness [...]
Tags: Breastfeeding, depression, medications and breastfeeding, ocd, postpartum depression
Posted by Barely Knit Together on Mar 17, 2009 in
Breastfeeding,
Mental Stability,
Motherhood
I have turned this topic around and around in my head over the last few days. And now several bloggers have beat me to the punch.
But that’s okay, because I’ve decided to take a slightly different direction with it. I want to talk about medications used to treat depression, anxiety, irritability, anger, and suicidal ideation, [...]
Tags: Breastfeeding, depression, medications and breastfeeding, Motherhood, parenting, postpartum depression, ppd
Posted by Barely Knit Together on Mar 14, 2009 in
A Bit on the Dark Side,
Mental Stability
Sometimes, late at night, when it’s dark and quiet and I’m completely alone at last, I think: maybe I should never have had children.
And my heart clenches and I start to cry and I want to argue with myself that it’s not true, but there is some little, hard, honest place inside of me that [...]
Tags: borderline personality disorder, depression, honesty, jesus, love, Motherhood, parenting, self harm, self injury, truth
Posted by Barely Knit Together on Mar 14, 2009 in
Homemaking Made Easy,
Mental Stability,
People Are Idiots
Here is the run down of my day:
1. Bread. In the bath tub. That’s right, ladies and gentlemen. Witness:
2. See cell phone. See glass of milk. See mom scream. See that it’s too late. I am sure gonna miss my milky, qwerty keyboard phone. This I have no photos of. It’s just too painful.
3. Forward [...]
Tags: children, Motherhood, new math, rant
Posted by Barely Knit Together on Mar 12, 2009 in
Mental Stability,
Uncategorized,
Writing
People are following me.
And I let them.
In fact, maybe I want them too. That’s sort of why I’m writing this – to figure out my motivations. Because I’ve had conversations with someone about this and the question of motivation always comes up. Frankly, I think he’s a little obsessive, but what do I really know?
I’m [...]
Tags: community, facebook, follow, friend, internet, social networking, Twitter
Posted by Barely Knit Together on Mar 2, 2009 in
Mental Stability
I recently started following a blogger who is clarifying some issues in my heart regarding faith and its place in my life. She writes with deep thoughtfulness on things that are difficult, even incendiary, and she does it gently and compassionately.
Many people of faith, myself included if asked a few short months ago, might argue [...]
Posted by Barely Knit Together on Feb 24, 2009 in
Mental Stability,
Motherhood,
Writing
I’m blocked. Completely. I cannot finds the words to complete a sentence. Okay, well – maybe that’s an exaggeration.
I want to say the problem is Beckett the terrible the toddler who will not tolerate me being out of his presence and who is right now screaming because I had the audacity to leave the room [...]
Tags: communication, writers block, Writing, writing with children
Posted by Barely Knit Together on Feb 12, 2009 in
Homemaking Made Easy,
Mental Stability,
Motherhood,
Writing
Where did it go? The discipline, the commitment?
I’m sure forcing myself to write is no more amusing for you than it is for me, but be grateful that you don’t have a small person dumping powdered milk on the floor in retribution for the lack of attention for ten minutes. And clinging to your leg [...]
Tags: bad housekeeping, children, dialectical behavior therapy, mindfulness, writing with children
Posted by Barely Knit Together on Feb 11, 2009 in
A Bit on the Dark Side,
Mental Stability
I am fairly open here, from the safety of my dining room table desk, seated in front of my dinosaur laptop. I suppose I feel a certain amount of anonymity, as everyone seems to on the internet. But I am also socially retarded, so I often make glib jokes about totally inappropriate things. Like mental [...]
Tags: borderline personality disorder, depression, dialectical behavior therapy