Posted by Barely Knit Together on Mar 14, 2009 in
A Bit on the Dark Side,
Mental Stability
Sometimes, late at night, when it’s dark and quiet and I’m completely alone at last, I think: maybe I should never have had children.
And my heart clenches and I start to cry and I want to argue with myself that it’s not true, but there is some little, hard, honest place inside of me that [...]
Tags: borderline personality disorder, depression, honesty, jesus, love, Motherhood, parenting, self harm, self injury, truth
Posted by Barely Knit Together on Feb 25, 2009 in
A Bit on the Dark Side,
People Are Idiots
In case you were wondering what I want for Easter this year, or Mother’s Day, or for my best friend’s birthday which is next week, here it is: the best Barbie ever.
Alfred Hitchcock anyone?
I mean, birds are a sign of spring, right?
Tags: "The Birds", Alfred Hitchcock, Barbie
Posted by Barely Knit Together on Feb 18, 2009 in
A Bit on the Dark Side
I love super heroes. There is something about the clarity of the issues in their worlds. Batman’s never-ending, depression-inducing fight against evil. Spiderman torn between love and the “great responsibility” that comes with great power. The ostracism of the X-Men. Watching them or reading their stories makes me feel a little thrill inside. Maybe even [...]
Tags: comics, facebook quizzes, super heroes, super powers
Posted by Barely Knit Together on Feb 11, 2009 in
A Bit on the Dark Side,
Mental Stability
I am fairly open here, from the safety of my dining room table desk, seated in front of my dinosaur laptop. I suppose I feel a certain amount of anonymity, as everyone seems to on the internet. But I am also socially retarded, so I often make glib jokes about totally inappropriate things. Like mental [...]
Tags: borderline personality disorder, depression, dialectical behavior therapy
Posted by Barely Knit Together on Feb 8, 2009 in
A Bit on the Dark Side,
Mental Stability
…if I don’t post today.
If I cannot find the humor in my dysfunction right now, I suspect we would all do better to take a hot bath and a nap and call it a day.
Catch y’all later.
Tags: borderline, borderline personality disorder, depression
Posted by Barely Knit Together on Feb 4, 2009 in
A Bit on the Dark Side
“We are so fragile, and our cracking bones make noise,
and we are just breakable, breakable, breakable girls and boys.”
-”Breakable” by Ingrid Michaelson
Whenever I think of the Spanish word for birthday – cupleanos – I think of “accomplish.” I have accomplished another year.
Not terribly impressive when you think about it. Unless you know me.
My father came [...]
Tags: birthdays, depression, mental illness